Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

not have gotten along with Father, but he still raised me.

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I can’t wait for the baby to be bom. I missed Noah’s birth so I’m making up with this baby”

her voice pulls me from my black thoughts.

Can I call you back mom? I was meeting up with Letty and Corrine for a lunch date and I

see them pulling up

It probably wasn’t them, but my mood had already been shot down to hell.

“Sure. Talk to you later. I love you Ava”

I love you too mom” I say, then hang up the phone.

I sigh as I place my phone down at the table. The moment I do that, my conflicting

thoughts immediately attack.

Father wasn’t the only issue associated with Reaper. There was also Rowan. Sure, he

wasn’t my favorite person, but he was Noah’s father. Reaper was hell bent on revenge and

losing Rowan would destroy Noah.

There was also the likelihood that he would go after those Rowan loved. Noah loved the

same people, well except for Emma that is. I just didn’t know what to do because part of

me felt like I had made a mistake giving him a chance. The other part just told me to trust

my instincts and my instincts told me it was the right move. 3

“What are you thinking so hard about?” Corrine’s voice startles me.

“Fuck, you scared me” I put my hand on my

t as if that would slow down my beating hard.

“Sorry. I thought you saw me coming in” she says looking sheepish.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I hadn’t realized that they had entered the private booth.

“It’s okay…I just have a lot on mind”

“Care to share?” Letty asks, taking her seat.

I shake my head. “Not really”

It’s not that I didn’t want to share, it’s just that I didn’t know how to. How do I even begin

telling them that the criminal everyone is tirelessly searching for is my baby’s uncle? Or

that we have

been in contact and as if that wasn’t worse I permitted him to be in my baby’s life?

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Does this have to do with Rowan again?” Letty leans forward. Her eyes sparkling for some

odd reason. Travis said that Rowan called him a few days ago and he was butt drunk”

I frown at that. I can’t remember the last time Rowan got drunk. He stopped drinking too

much after Ncan was born. Plus he’s gone radio silent since that night he showed up

unexpectedly at

my house.

I still can’t believe that I punched him. It felt good because I’ve wanted to do that for a

long time.

“Why was he drunk?” Corrine asks, seeming curious.

Letty shrugs her shoulders as she answers. “Neither Travis or I know, but I bet Gabe knows

and I

double bet that Ava has an idea❞

They both turn to look at me expectantly. I shift uncomfortably on my chair.

“Spill it, Ava” Letty commands.

“Honestly, I don’t know anything. The last time I saw him, he turned up unexpectedly at

my house

at night. His behavior was odd so I asked him to leave”

“Describe odd?” Corrine pushes.

“He got jealous when Noah mentioned that Re-” I catch myself before I can say his name.

“Noah

mentioned something about suitors and he went ballistic saying I belonged to him and he

wasn’t

going to allow me to whore myself to other men”

I still get pissed when I remember his words. Like what the hell was wrong with him? I

belonged

to him? Since when? Plus I am not a fucking object. I am a human being.

“Ooh, so possessive. I never thought I would see the day when Rowan becomes

possessive towards

you” Letty says all dreamy. 1

I just look at her like she was losing her grip on reality.

“You can’t be serious, Letty. This is Rowan we are talking about. The same man that told

me over

and over again that I meant nothing to him. That he would never love me because he

hates my

fucking guts”

The pain I used to feel was mainly replaced by anger. All the heartbreak I went through

and all for

what? He is still a thorn on my side.

“I honestly think he has come to the realization that he wants you. Why do you think he

wants to

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“Even if that’s true, which I highly doubt, it doesn’t matter It’s a little too late. I gave him

countless opportunities during the nine years we were married and he wasted them all. He

gave me nothing return except pain. I just don’t see things the way you guys do”

They’re quiet Both staring at me like they want to say something, but don’t know how. For

now, all I want is to let this Rowan issue go. I don’t want to think about him or his sudden

change in behavior. I already had too much on my plate without adding him to the mix.

“Look, I know you guys want to see me happy and for some reason you think I’ll find that

happiness with Rowan, but you’re wrong. Our relationship was doomed from the moment

we said ‘ I do‘ years ago. We are toxic for each other. I loved him and hated him at the

same time while he

only hated me. I tried transforming myself into something I’m not just so he would love

me and that didn’t work. Even if I were to try now, it wouldn’t work. The love I had for him

is buried under tons of pain, heartbreak, resentment and bitterness. So please I beg you,

let’s just let this issue go okay?”

You can’t force the heart to want something it doesn’t. That’s what Corrine and Letty were

trying to do. Force feelings that didn’t exist. They want me to get my fairytale ending and

they believe that will only happen with Rowan. Why couldn’t they understand that just

because they want him to love me doesn’t make it a reality?

Sure, Rowan was acting differently, but I believe it’s just a phase. Men like what they can’t

have. He wants me now because he can’t have me. Soon enough he’ll get bored of the

chase and go back to his true love. If I give in I’ll be left in another load of heartbreak after

he realizes I am not what

he wants.

“Let’s just focus on what we came here fo

1 them after silence descends on us..

“Alright” Corrine replies.

“Fine” Letty grumbles.

I sigh in relief. Happy they were willing to let it go for now. I know Letty will look for an

opportunity to bring it up again, but I’ll deal with it when she does.

“Can we go to an ice cream shop or something? For some reason this fancy ass place is

getting on my nerves with all the snobbish waiters and waitresses” Letty says out of

nowhere.

“We could go to my restaurant” Corrine adds.

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I don’t know why they didn’t think of that in the first place. Instead of saying anything, I

keep

quiet

“Nah. Have you ever been to an ice cream shop or a fast food restaurant?” Letty turns to

face

Comine whose eyes shift nervously.

She shakes her head. “Not really”

“Great Today is your lucky day. We’ll have lunch at a fast food restaurant then have a froyo

or ice cream at an ice cream shop, then we’ll head to your office to discuss our business

progress so far”

I smile at the deer caught in headlights look that Corrine has plastered on her face. It’s

time we introduce her to the normal world. Which in my opinion is way better than the

stuck up people

who surround us.

Letty pulls Corrine up, while I stand up.

“What if I get food poisoning? I heard that such restaurants aren’t entirely hygienic when

they

handle food.” Corrine complains as she tries to wiggle out of Letty’s grasp.

“So what? You’ll get a bad case of diarrhea and after a few days of pooping your intestines

off,

you’ll be good to go. Trust me. This fancy stuff has nothing on greasy food” Letty answers.

Laughing, I walk behind them as I listen to their banter. It was so refreshing.

I was contemplating on how thankful I am for having such friends, when her bitter voice

kills

every single joy I was feeling.

“Look what we have here? It’s the pregnant whore”

I turn to my side to find Christine staring at me with nothing but hatred in her eyes. As if

that

wasn’t enough, Emma was standing right next to her. 2

I close my eyes and let out a breath while wondering why the hell did god hate me so

much.