Chapter 189 Stop Ruining Yourself
For three consecutive days, Erin hid in her hospital room and avoided seeing anyone. Whenever
nurses came in to deliver her meals, Erin responded with two words coldly, “Go away.”
Due to Paulo’s repeated emphasis to all medical staff that they should not force Erin into anything she
disliked, they gave her full freedom. Therefore, when Erin refused to see anyone or eat anything, even
the medical staff, including the psychologists, were at a loss.
Paulo was aware of this, but he couldn’t understand why. After he’d gone out of his way to tell her all
those good news. Erin not only didn’t. continue to face her treatment positively but even refused to
accept the most basic necessities.
On the first day when Erin refused to eat, Paulo told the medical staff not to worry too much, saying
that she was just throwing a tantrum and that she would eat when she was really hungry. But after
three days, Erin showed no intention of letting up.
In the end, Paulo couldn’t let her have her way any longer. He couldn’t allow Erin to spiral down this
path of self-destruction. He was afraid
that Erin would really starve herself to death.
At 6 am on the fourth day. Paulo arrived at Erin’s room with a bowl of nutritious oatmeal porridge he’d
cooked himself.
From the moment he entered, Erin, who was lying down, didn’t even spare him a glance. She showed
no response whatsoever.
With a displeased expression, Paulo deliberately and rudely placed the bowl of porridge on the coffee
table, and a loud noise of ceramic
colliding with glass rang out in the room. Even so, Erin remained indifferent. She lay flat on her back,
staring at the ceiling blankly. The ceiling was completely devoid of anything-there was only vast
whiteness.
Occasionally, she would blink. Though she was physically lying in the ward, her heart and mind were
simply not there. Her gaze was hollow and void as if nothing that happened in the world had anything
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to do with her anymore. Even when Paulo stood right in front of her, she still didn’t look at him. Her
behavior of not eating or drinking for three days straight infuriated Paulo.
Unable to bear how she was wasting her life away, Paulo finally burst out in anger. “Erin! Are you trying
to kill yourself? Why did you suddenly decide to go on a hunger strike? What the hell are you doing to
yourself?”
Paulo took a deep breath, trying to suppress his irritable emotions as he continued. “I’ve done what you
asked me to do. I brought you the information you wanted, and your son is living well with his father.
You even have a sister who can temporarily take care of your mother. The scu mbag who harmed you
is also dead! What else are you dissatisfied with?”
Seeing Erin still wearing a hopeless expression. Paulo got even more furious. He chastised. “Can you
stop ruining yourself like this? Why are you playing the role of a helpless martyr? What are you trying to
achieve by not eating and drinking? Do you think you can become some kind of immortal deity by doing
that?”
Erin didn’t respond to the barrage of questions Paulo fired at her. It caused him to feel a deep sense of
powerlessness; it felt as if he was punching cotton.
Three days ago, after hearing about everything, Erin had a breakdown and wept bitterly. Afterward, she
chose to lie down in silence, and at that time, Paulo didn’t say anything more. In fact, there were many
things he had yet to say.
Right now, he was at a complete loss. He couldn’t save someone who had given up on themselves.
He didn’t bring Erin back from the island just to have her die on him. No matter what, he couldn’t just
leave her be. If it weren’t for the fact that Erin was the one that he personally saved, Paulo would have
given up long ago had it been someone else. Whether the person lived or died would have nothing to
do with him..
He’d never been a saint.
Paulo had many sides that Erin didn’t know about, but their time of acquaintance was short, so he
hadn’t had the chance to show them, nor had she had the opportunity to learn more about him.
Helplessly, Paulo glanced at the unmoving person who was no different from a mummy in an ancient
tomb at the moment. He turned around and carried a white leather chair from not far away over. Then,
he forcefully placed it on the ground.
He sat down but didn’t look at Erin. He just lowered his gaze and stared at a certain point on the floor.
After about half a minute, Paulo began to pick up from where he’d left off three days ago.
“During the time you were kidnapped, Chandler never gave up on searching for you. In the first month
after you went missing, your mother
said she went to the Frost building to find him and saw that he’d lost a lot of weight. His me ntal state
was so bad that he was close to
har ming himself.”
Paulo raised his gaze intentionally to look into Erin’s eyes and swiftly caught a faint flicker in her
originally unfocused eyes.
He felt a glimmer of hope in his heart as he continued, “Your mother already considers Chandler as her
son-in-law. She told him to take care of himself so that he could take care of you in the future. Chandler
did change afterward. He returned to a normal state of life, but the only thing that didn’t change was
that he continued to dispatch a large number of personnel to search for you. After you disappeared,
many of your friends tried to find you. They used their own connections and made efforts to locate you.”
Paulo then sighed heavily. “But you should also understand that a long period of silence gradually
erodes hope. Not everyone can firmly hold on to their beliefs that you’re still alive. Some people
eventually gave up searching for you because they didn’t want their own lives to be plunged into an
endless abyss, waiting indefinitely for someone they no longer believed would come back. It’s a painful
and helpless.
thing to do.”
Observing Erin, Paulo went on, “In many kidnapping cases that were done out of revenge, the victims
were generally found dead by the time they were found. Yet, Chandler is still sending people around
the world to search for you, which shows how important you are to him!”
At this point, tears slid down the corners of Erin’s eyes, as she once again experienced the emotions
that a normal person would have.
Seizing the opportunity. Paulo went on, “According to reliable information I’ve found, he has secretly
divorced Jazzlyn. They never lived together after their marriage. Just recently, Chandler’s grandfather,
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Jazzlyn. Judging by his swift actions. Chandler has always been in a helpless position throughout this
marriage. Your mother told me about this as well. She said Chandler wanted a divorce early on, but
Gaston threatening to end his own life forced him to temporarily give up the idea of divorce.”
Upon hearing this, Erin couldn’t help but look at Paulo. Her teary and glistening eyes focused entirely
on him. “Did my mother tell you this?”
Paulo felt a sense of joy in his heart. Seeing that she finally spoke to him and seemed to believe him,
he shrugged and said, “I don’t appreciate what you just said. You’re making it sound like I’m deceiving
you, but come on, think about it. What reason do I have to deceive you? I have no reason to speak on
behalf of Chandler. Heck, we don’t even know each other! Also, I’ll be frank with you-I’m a very
reclusive person. I spend most of my time here conducting my research. I have no interest in
socializing and interpersonal relationships.”
Although Erin didn’t say anything, her expression indicated that she seemed to believe what he said.
Paulo’s eyes flickered as he told her yet another piece of melodramatic information. “There’s something
I heard that I found quite amusing. Do you know who your father, Steven, married after his divorce?”
From the way he asked so teasingly, Erin surmised that the person in question must be someone she
knew. After experiencing all those unfortunate events she’d been put through, hearing about her
father’s divorce and remarriage hardly elicited any reaction from her.
She casually asked, “Who?”
Paulo smirked, his tone full of disdain as he answered. “Tracy.”
This answer made Erin sit up straight in an instant. Incredulously, she asked again, “Who did you say?”
“Tracy.”
Hearing the same answer once more, Erin spaced out in disbelief. This sudden plot twist left her utterly
speechless.
Paulo raised an eyebrow mischievously and said, “Erin, I hope you won’t be too shocked by what I’m
about to say. You see, not long ago, Tracy gave birth to a son for your father, so you have a new baby
brother.”
The absurdity of these family relationships hit Erin hard and fast, and she couldn’t help but curse in
frustration, “F u ck!”